Last year following the 3rd senbatsu election, a lot of the members that didn’t make the rankings made some heartbreaking comments on their blogs – the one I remember that made me feel sorry for the most was Natsuki Sato who felt rejected and unloved. So let’s have a look at 4 members who didn’t rank in the Top 64 and their feelings on what transpired yesterday starting with:
Today was the Senbatsu Election. I wasn’t able to stand on that stage but it was a really nice event is what I believe from my heart. But if I tell you my true feelings I was mortified. It was a shame to have high expectations. I’m really sorry to everyone after it ended, I was crying alone in the dressing room but the comments from the elected 64 all entered my heart – “Come and surpass your seniors”. I felt that I forgot that. That’s why I’ll really really do my best this year so that I’ll be cheered on a lot by everyone. I might not have entered the results but I’m sure I got a lot of votes. I’ll try not to say “I’m sorry” cause if I say that I’ll probably start getting sad. I’m really grateful to those who have always supported me. Thank you very much. I’ve received a lot of love, and I’ll keep continuing running forward. Please let me keep doing my best in AKB48.
Everyone, I’m so very, very,very thankful towards all of you. It was mortifying. My name not being called was mortifying. At the handshake events, the comments were always:
“I voted for you!”
“We believe in you!”
“From now on, always smile!”
And that’s how we last met. Frantically going to CD shops. And then going to vote was what everyone did at the time… I know that everyone did this just for me. I have to say I’m sorry, but I’m very thankful. To be honest, that’s what I wanted to say on that stage.
Would I do it?
Would I get to do it?
I am really glad, though. I looked towards the fans, because I knew it all was hard for everyone, So I was glad. I stopped myself from crying when it was all over, and when I saw the others from my office, I couldn’t cry. I’ve been given so many chances and so much advice…I felt like it was no good just to work harder. I am a complex bundle. I couldn’t admit that to myself. This place is full of honesty and suspicion. I didn’t have the self-confidence. But with talk of those things, I know that many others felt the same way about losing. Since April I’ve had the privilege of broadcasting the weather, and I study for it diligently each time. I like to think that I’m the best at it, and it’s a chance to work hard. Being able to work hard in AKB by doing the weather… I’m a really fortunate individual to have that opportunity. I’ve gotten to really digest this happiness over the past year – I get to receive everyone’s love and gratitude, and then get to share that love again with everyone. Everyone is so loving. It’s my biggest dream.
Thank you so much for your love, everyone.
The general election is finished! I wasn’t able to rank this year again! But, I know a lot of fans voted for me. That’s why, I don’t feel sad! I’m the usual Chika-chiyan!! Of course, there are feelings of disappointment! I’m disappointed, but I won’t let this beat me, and I’ll do my best. Because, the fact that I didn’t rank means I didn’t try hard enough at this year’s general election. I cried watching others cry again! Crying and laughing was fun as I thought, I love AKB48. For the girls that ranked in, congratulations. I’ll be positive again this year, I am me. I’ll do my best. To all my fans, I love you.
For everyone who voted for me, thank you very much. No matter how many times I say thank you, it’s not enough. I’m really grateful. That’s why, please don’t tell me you’re sorry. That’s sad, and you didn’t do anything wrong. It will become my strength. I can do what I want to do, and I can buy what I want to buy. When I think like that, I really feel inexcusable. Why did they use the tickets on me? I’ll think about that, and without forgetting my feelings of thanks, I’ll do my best from now. I am happy. Thank you so much.
Credit to blog48 for their translated entries.